Sometimes, I sit back and wonder...
Jun. 21st, 2008 09:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kits_hiwatariWhat does it take for one to be a true fan? And how far does it extend to to be considered a true fan?
I dunno, well, with the news that Katou-san and Saitou-san are going overseas for Hyouteimyu, that I'm doubting my 'fangirlism'.
Half of me wants to go, see my boys (che. I don't own them. Their companies own them.) live, or at least have a feel of what it's like to be in a myu.
The other half is like, get real, girl. They're Japanese boys. FAMOUS Japanese boys. You are never going to get to know them for real, aside from their blogs. Even then you can't read Japanese well, so half of the time you're just admiring their faces or the things they post about.
I sure won't be able to step into Japan until I'm at least over 21, and even then, what are the odds of meeting them on the streets? Japan isn't like Singapore; here you can pass by TKC and probably see an actress out with her family, and because Singapore is like soooo small compared to Japan, chances of bumping into actors or actresses are much slimmer in Japan than Singapore.
Money doesn't grow on trees, that I know. Every halfmonth pay I cut 100 away due to a MySavings account which I don't know how to withdraw from (argh >O), and the rest I blow it on my fandoms, cosplay and Schwarz (but currently Schu doesn't get any money because Mommy's busy with Kawai-san and his new DVD (which, together with his photobook, costs ¥8,941, including shipping). And because Mommy's desperate for money, she'll probably have to work overtime, due to the oh so obviously lack of staff at my workplace. :/
That, or she have to be thriftier.
I feel so down now. And I'm blaming it on the hormones. Periods are evil.
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And I owe my sister a pair of red converse hightops. :x *goes out looking for them*
I dunno, well, with the news that Katou-san and Saitou-san are going overseas for Hyouteimyu, that I'm doubting my 'fangirlism'.
Half of me wants to go, see my boys (che. I don't own them. Their companies own them.) live, or at least have a feel of what it's like to be in a myu.
The other half is like, get real, girl. They're Japanese boys. FAMOUS Japanese boys. You are never going to get to know them for real, aside from their blogs. Even then you can't read Japanese well, so half of the time you're just admiring their faces or the things they post about.
I sure won't be able to step into Japan until I'm at least over 21, and even then, what are the odds of meeting them on the streets? Japan isn't like Singapore; here you can pass by TKC and probably see an actress out with her family, and because Singapore is like soooo small compared to Japan, chances of bumping into actors or actresses are much slimmer in Japan than Singapore.
Money doesn't grow on trees, that I know. Every halfmonth pay I cut 100 away due to a MySavings account which I don't know how to withdraw from (argh >O), and the rest I blow it on my fandoms, cosplay and Schwarz (but currently Schu doesn't get any money because Mommy's busy with Kawai-san and his new DVD (which, together with his photobook, costs ¥8,941, including shipping). And because Mommy's desperate for money, she'll probably have to work overtime, due to the oh so obviously lack of staff at my workplace. :/
That, or she have to be thriftier.
I feel so down now. And I'm blaming it on the hormones. Periods are evil.
[EDIT]
And I owe my sister a pair of red converse hightops. :x *goes out looking for them*
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Date: 2008-06-21 03:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-21 03:07 pm (UTC)I suppose it's both yes and no? :D
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Date: 2008-06-21 03:16 pm (UTC)It's also like, they're all experiences you accumulate.. it's only not worth it if you regret it. Which also applies to if you regret not going if you had an opportunity to.
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Date: 2008-06-21 03:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-21 03:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-21 05:50 pm (UTC)and i can really tell you, honestly, i'm feeling quite the same.
i was thinking about it in the shower this morning after finding out the news, and somewhere in my heart, i know this is my chance to see them live, a sign. and i'd do anything, borrowing money, running away, anything, to be able to do so.
then my head comes screaming back telling me it's ridiculous. i'm only going to see them from far, and they're never going to notice me, no matter how striking i look, there are at least hundreds girls in front of me,hoping for the same dream to come true. but it wont because they're busy working. and although they are really really good as the characters, it's not really them who i would see, just actors playing their parts.
and sometimes my head beats my heart, i guess that's why it's placed higher than the latter. the boys, they're famous, they're japanese. as much as i have a slim chance going to japan, there's a slimmer chance of me meeting them on the streets there. and far slimmer chance (although the reality is there, i have no idea why i still keep dreaming about it) that by some divine intervention, i might meet/pass by them sometime in my life.
anyway, sorry for the loooong comment, but i had just to tell you that i really, really know exactly how you feel. *hugs*